"I'm certain you do. And I want you too." I do, but what if you miss that life too much. What if it harms you, makes you resent what happened to to even more? I worry, Father, that this will hurt you even more. And perhaps...

...what if you had a family before? Another child, perhaps. I know it sounds so terrible of me to think it, but I can't help it. I love the life we have here and worry about anything that could change it.

"They took so much from you. You... you should have it back."